曾经~

很想说 [[ 我已经变了！！]] 我变成熟懂事了！你可以再一次好好爱我吗？可以再一次对我好吗？

我看回了我们在一起时的对话。我那时真的好幼稚，好爱发大小姐脾气！我一边读，一边想，是不是因为这样，你对我的容忍已到了极限，所以你才会变心了？在我们的对话里，一看就知道你已经变心了,但我那时到底还坚持着什么？为什么那时我选择骗我自己？相信你还爱我的，只是我想太多！

不要跟我说她有多好！当初你也曾经跟我说我很好，甚至是最好的！
不要跟我说她有多温柔，有多体谅你，多包容你！当初我没对你温柔过吗？我没体谅包容你吗？
别跟我说她不在乎钱财，很容易满足，甚至给她一个小熊就能让她开心一整天！那我呢？你给我的一封烂信，我都把它
当作宝一样爱护！还能让我开心整个月！

她有的，我曾经都有过！这条路也就是我和你曾经开心幸福走过的！如今，这条路踏着的是你和她的脚印！你和她只不过重复走过我和你的美好路程，只是女主角不是我罢了~那改次，下一个女朋友你是不是同样重复说她的好？重复走过这条路？我没要求你回来我身边，我也不想你回来了，该走的总是会走的。你走了也许对我来说是一件好事！因为你，我长大了，我成熟懂事了！谢谢你，曾经爱过我，曾经给过我快乐，也曾经伤害过我！
再见了，我曾经最深爱的你~

他回来了？

很突然的，他打给我~
好久好久没听到他声音了~
他还是老样子，还是口花花的~甜言蜜语一大堆~
好兴奋~感觉又回来了~
我真的好奇怪~到底想要什么？
但算了~
至少他的一通电话，能给我忘记所有烦恼~
他还是保留着我少奶奶的位置~哈哈。。
好啦，希望他的生意兴隆~


[[心情开心一整天~]]
hehe.....^^

性格~

有时我觉得我对他心动了~
但我和他是不可能的~
我很奇怪、~

自从有了他。。。
我开始会耍性格~耍大小姐脾气~
但我知道我现在不能再任性了~
学着改变我自己~


有时很想说~
我耍脾气不是我真的生气了，而是我在乎你！
只想要你的安慰~知道吗？

For Daniel's friend, Girlfriend and him...

Okay...i know everything already... Finally,i know all.... and u had lie me all. From the beginning,u started lie me already. I won't delete what i write before. You and her together one year,and we break already one year plus. Last time about me and you,no more,never distrub u again.

For daniel's gf,what i write had pass. Don't think so much,i break with him before you two started. Just want to say,he not a good person (for me)... I will wish u two...i won't snatch him from u...don't worry.....

For daniel: I don't want to delete it.... What u had said just now,its really hurt me.. lie me..play me,what u want from me again? After u and her almost one year,u just tell me that u have gf already. Then after one year,what u want to tell me more? Lie me that u stil love me,want to find me,by true,i believe what u said before... But now,all equal to zero. Its like a dream. I had nothing left. Nothing! U totally break my heart. I don't want to say more,my tears will mean everything. Wish u two happy together... No more friend.... I regret i had together with you...i regret i know u....!!

If any daniel's friend saw this,if feel i wrong,tell me.... If your gf angry,ask her to find me...i will explain all to her!!! i won't seperate u two...don't worry......
Lastly,I don't want be friend with you.I don't want be friend with a lier!!! BYE!

Feeling?

First of all,i would say that my blog alive again!!!

Don't know why,i feel sad and moody since a month ago. Even i do something to make me happy,but it not work,useless. But i think no one know it,and no one understand what my feeling now. Can u all imagine,what feeling when a person u like saying u? I don't know whether i like or i had accustomed to him? Now we are not friend anymore(i think)... Stop talking,stop quarreling. Is it friend is use for 利用？ After 利用 finish,then no bother her/him more. I don't want to think more! Is it think positive will solve everything? (i don't think so) I very tired,tired,tired~~ Everything had to make it like nothing happen. I keep everything keep until i very tired. Maybe something not to say is better. Trying to be good,but at last also get damaged by them. Maybe what he say is right,说好听是倒霉，不好听是天生注定被人讲~ I don't want to be that,everybody also don't hope too,but what should do? People's mouth,can't control. I like to be myself,but sometimes i had to perform as a good girl to make myself look good,is it the good way to hiding myself? Maybe some people don't like my attitude or the way i talking,but that me! Okay,from now i think i will act like a "softy" person...but can it? But i don't hope my "future" boyfriend will likes the "softy" of me,i want he likes the real of me!! I really hope i can have a person who can make me release my tired and don't so FAKE in front of him! I need a boyfriend??(i think~to control me,XD) I miss the feeling of in love~(sweet) Tell he what i feel right now,and have a person who support me always~ I miss the feeling~~!! *shouting* But i think i will not have a boyfriend now,cause of my rumours,i think~ Give Up thinking of boyfriend! Still cannot make my mood feel better. Have to take long long time to cure it again. Be tough, be strong, be happy! Think positive~ (all just a persuade for myself)

Stop at here,bye~ Will be die long long long time again....................
-Chui-

DIE-ing

No more Tan Cheng Chui...

No more Miss Whatever...

Rest In Peace..... [ D.I.E ]

Blog Alive-ing

Sorry for no updating so long...coz working and working and working,so no time to online already. Well,now is school holiday. But almost all my time in holiday was spend in work,damn it,waste much time. Tot that i will use working money and fly to KL to play, but now.... i cant go to KL anymore. Sorry guy... My mummy wanna see my poor result... she giving me a rule,and the rule really make me wanna die!! the rule is must give she see my result,she just will giving me money and let me go to KL.oh gost!! if she see my damn poor result then i sure 100% cant go too.... so,at last the conclusion is "CANNOT GO"!!! and my daddy bla bla bla about my future too. always say study study study. cannot play and must study,and bla bla bla... hear till i know what he wanna say. haiz.... very fan nao ah!!! really is no money no talk!!! if they did not give me money,so sorry guy...i really cant go dy.. takkan i wan borrow so much money with my fren?? imposible la.... haiz.. really sorry,i did not hope it happen too. Sorry...

hmmm...... what i should say more?? oh ya... that day i hear a news... and the news was,daniel will come here and find me. hmmm,izit real?? or just he simply say?? anyway,dont care! haha... acting no care,but the feeling was so excited! thinking why the reason he wanna come?? give back all our thing?? or wanna take back dudu?? or good back with me?? haiz... what he thinking now? dont make me syok sendiri lagi. haha..^^ well...dont think about he more,he not my bf already,he is my EX~~!!! thinking my newest bf more good..haha..he really good to me la...what should i do??? haha... kisiao again....love u~~!!!

all right,dont know what should i write more... hope everything will be okay... dont give me fan nao again.. trip thing i will try to solve it,if really cannot too,i had to say sorry to u all... please forgive me...sorry~~ wish me and my dearest friends will happy and health everyday... miss u all...^^


Written By:
Miss Whatever
11-12-2009

22-10-2009 up growing to 16~~

hehe....finally,i 16 years old!!! old liao old liao... happy birthday to me... and thankz all my frens that celebrate together with me... i really so so so happy yesterday... i ate 4 types of cake on my birthday... haha.... and i had record all the person that send birthday msg to me...
here the ming ci.... :
1st:xiao song 2nd: chee huey
3rd:penny 4th: kok hao
5th:carol 6th:kit
7th:lay yan 8th:hwee ting
9th:cheiw may 10th:kian kiat
11th:siet li 12th:teric
13th:mun heng 14th:jenlung
15th: annie 16th:jiayi
17th:ta kai 18th:lay ping
19th:pek eyu 20th:wei shen
21st: pui li 22nd:daniel foo
23rd: cheng nee 24th: yizen
25th:victor 26th:mami kenny
27th:zu wen 28th:daniel lau
29th:teck shen 30th:ah boy
ok...until 30 only...^^ and the last person is
TAN JIA WEI!!! late 2 days jst wish me..call me put in blog pulok...=.=" (edit today-26/10/09)
anyways,thankz 4 u all....^.>
here the cake i ate....haha....

1st cake:tiramisu(secret recipi) gave by:nee,qing,yan,may,lau and kok hao,thankz u all...


2nd cake: cheese cake(secret recipi) gave by lay mei...thankz you ya...^^


3rd cake:homemake cake...made by my mom...carrot slice cake...^^thankz mom!!



4th cake: small muffin...gave by my classmate(4 beta) thankz,coz giving me a susprise!!

1-10-2009

haiz...it already 1-10-2009,but i did not receive your message until now... did u saw what i had send for u? or u just take it as nothing? today is our one year and seven months,did u stil remember?? or it just a ordinary date for u? haiz..just me alone care of this date,this day..how stupid am i...right? see-ing my friends sweet with their boyfriends,it make me thinking of u,make me some jealous,but i realize that not use i jealous or what,because i had nothing now..include YOU,u are not belong to me now... it useless thinking about u,because it just a dream for me... haiz...all our memory just like a dream,when wake up,all had gone... gone until i cannot even thinking or "touch" it back... it will make my heart pain and my tears drop by drop... thinking back our first time MEET,it really happy and unbelieveble... see-ing back all gift u had gave me,lollipop, dudu, bear brick and many many more....... make me think back our memory... one more time my tears drop again... haiz... not to think back u again!! stop it!! did u play 捉谜藏 with me? almost one month u did not contact with me,even a message also no! u know how worry am i? what happen with u? can anybody tell me? please...?? did u already have girlfriend? if got,just let me know it,at least i can know the reason u leave me... please, i dont like to play this game with u... it really hard for me to success it...i tired...!! this few day call u also did not pick up my phone. send message for u also did not reply me... what game u wanna play with me now?! can i surrender? i did not have enough energy to continue play with u... please let me go... haiz............ im not speechless,is brainless now... my brain all "white"... dont know wanna think what,except u...!! someone please help me,can? try to find him out...i just wanna know the answer... please, give me an answer..!! i need your answer!! please... help me...please help me...please!!! i dont want to stay in this situation anymore... haiz... everytime i need your accompany,your caring,your everything,but u gave me nothing everytime... hope to receive your message saying " happy one year and seven months,i love you" to me... hope it...but it wont happen,i know...just a dream for me again... haiz... hope u will happy with your girlfriend if u have a girlfrind already... goodbye my love... "i love you"... the only true word from my heart...

world dark's thing

WTF!!! i just saw something that i cannot believe!! HE(DANIEL!!) DELETE ME FROM FRIENDSTER FRIEND LIST!! what the HIM!!! what mean like that? mean u dont want keep our relationship anymore?? or what? give me an EXPLAIN please!! i dont want like that!! what u thinking now!! what the HELL!!!! give me an call if u saw this,i know u had see my blog before.call me and tell me what u want!! i dont want be an idiot waiting for something that USELESS!!! OMG!! the news really a big DAMN for me!! haiz... time to lost~~!!! tears had drop again....what i doing now!! no crying for him anymore!! damn fool!! stop it... my brain had stop,bye..!! useless.....................T.T