1-10-2009

haiz...it already 1-10-2009,but i did not receive your message until now... did u saw what i had send for u? or u just take it as nothing? today is our one year and seven months,did u stil remember?? or it just a ordinary date for u? haiz..just me alone care of this date,this day..how stupid am i...right? see-ing my friends sweet with their boyfriends,it make me thinking of u,make me some jealous,but i realize that not use i jealous or what,because i had nothing now..include YOU,u are not belong to me now... it useless thinking about u,because it just a dream for me... haiz...all our memory just like a dream,when wake up,all had gone... gone until i cannot even thinking or "touch" it back... it will make my heart pain and my tears drop by drop... thinking back our first time MEET,it really happy and unbelieveble... see-ing back all gift u had gave me,lollipop, dudu, bear brick and many many more....... make me think back our memory... one more time my tears drop again... haiz... not to think back u again!! stop it!! did u play 捉谜藏 with me? almost one month u did not contact with me,even a message also no! u know how worry am i? what happen with u? can anybody tell me? please...?? did u already have girlfriend? if got,just let me know it,at least i can know the reason u leave me... please, i dont like to play this game with u... it really hard for me to success it...i tired...!! this few day call u also did not pick up my phone. send message for u also did not reply me... what game u wanna play with me now?! can i surrender? i did not have enough energy to continue play with u... please let me go... haiz............ im not speechless,is brainless now... my brain all "white"... dont know wanna think what,except u...!! someone please help me,can? try to find him out...i just wanna know the answer... please, give me an answer..!! i need your answer!! please... help me...please help me...please!!! i dont want to stay in this situation anymore... haiz... everytime i need your accompany,your caring,your everything,but u gave me nothing everytime... hope to receive your message saying " happy one year and seven months,i love you" to me... hope it...but it wont happen,i know...just a dream for me again... haiz... hope u will happy with your girlfriend if u have a girlfrind already... goodbye my love... "i love you"... the only true word from my heart...