Lucky star...

Hiiii....... Neglected my blog for N years already. Well, I left 6 days to my final exam! *awww* How fast is it ! And guess what, I haven't touch single of my books yet. Hmmm, Am gonna fail this time, especially my management! Please, study study study!! Please please....slap me! Wake me up....!! I can't be like this! Arrrggghhhh.... >_<


一对情侣在一起是因为什么？缘分？性格？还是玩爽？
对我忽冷忽热是因为没话题？可笑不？这是借口啊！
我干嘛又败在一个男人的手上？我说过我不要再被伤害了！我到底是这么啦？永远都被爱情打败？永远都得不到幸福~
就那一次，那一次的错误，造成现在的我？我不要！
我希望他是我的最后一个爱情，我不想再为任何一个男生掉无谓的眼泪！
可是，他真的会是我最后一个爱情吗？
我真的累了，对于爱情，我随便了。
他说他也累了，跟我在一起他很辛苦，难道我不是吗？可是我选择接受。
体谅？你就只会为你想，我呢？我不需要你的体谅吗？
脾气，是！我承认我的脾气比较难忍！可是那样的脾气只会在我依赖或相信的人才会有的！我也尝试改啦~ =(
有时你就是给我感觉你已经对我冷了，没感觉了，是我想太多吗？
你知道吗？有时你的语气，你的话，很让我心痛吗？每次都默默的流泪，你又知道吗？
真的好像大哭大哭一场~想要告诉你，我真的好心痛，好心痛，不要再对我那样了，好吗？
我想要有个人可以好好的爱我，疼我，我真的受不起伤害了~
我很笨吧？ =(


Oh ya... Tomorrow is 冬至 la... But I can't celebrate this special day with my lovely family. *sad* And I can't eat 汤圆 too! I miss my grandmom & mami ones... *sigh* For those who can celebrate with family, wish u 冬至快乐 Of cause also for those people who same like me can't celebrate this day. And and... Christmas is on the corner too!! Hehe..... But I have to facing my Final exam~~ How sad again!! But I wish I can have a Christmas present too!! Santa santa, May I have my christmas present? *finger crossing*
Last, wish u all Merry Christmas !! <3 <3

Smile.... =)

最近一大堆烦人的事情通通往我身上压。真的很累~脸上的微笑也减少了，变得不爱笑了，也不说话了。有时控制不了自己的心情，摆出丑脸，另到其他人也跟着down了~真的很对不起，我也不想的。

有些事情，让我看开了。什么介意，在意，通通都丢进大海里了！不要再为小事莫名的不开心。也许伪装才是最好吧~深深的深呼吸，再对自己说：“看开点，其实这世界还有属于自己的天空。” 继续微笑吧~ =)

烦人的事，所谓船到桥头自然直嘛~不要再烦了.... 爱笑的你，去了哪里呢？

给自己的话：

用最开，最真的自己去面对一切。

不要贪别人的爱，多爱自己，也要学习爱别人~加油！=) 

多少人能拥有天长地久的爱情？

有我facebook的朋友们应该都知道我最近的心情是差到极点！对，哭了又哭~
对自己说，何必呢？值得吗？可是眼泪却一直掉下~
他.........并不知道....... T.T

我真的好烦哦~又是为爱情的事烦.... *sigh*
我真的对他的爱没信心了，内心的挣扎，让我一次又一次的犯下错误！
当初敷衍他的爱的人是我，如今爱上了，他却给了我敷衍...
难道之前都是我的错？是我赶走了自己的幸福？错过了一个爱我的人？
他一直都在报复，报复我之前怎么对他。现在他一一的换回给我！
爱我的男人，是这样吗？
有时觉得他对我还是有感觉的，可是后来他又伤害了我~
我真的不明白！如果你没感觉了，那你为什么那么在意我的事情？
难道就像你说的，是我想太多？ *Big Sigh*
你以为朋友就这么好做吗？朋友朋友！！
每次都说这句！你烦不烦啊？！

控制不了我心情！怎么办？
又怕失去，又舍不得！
真的好挣扎！放过我吧~~~~
爱情，真让人心痛.......


妈咪昨天跟我说了一个坏消息。她说我们的楼上邻居去世了。
而且不是一位罢了，是一对夫妻...
从小就每天看到他们两夫妻在楼下聊天，一起走路去附近的超市。
他们真的好恩爱。有多少夫妻还能像他们一样，永不分开？
活着时，他们在一起；去世了，他们也在一起。
希望他们能在另外一个世界更幸福，更快乐。
[ 节哀顺变 ] T.T


ps:
是你的东西，即使错过了，他也会回来，对吗?
不是你的，你再怎么哀求都不会再回来了~
 <3

保持沉默~

表面上装得若无其事，其实内心真的撑不住了。
伪装伪装伪装！我...............崩溃了~
很多事情明明很在意，很妒忌，我却安静了。
保持沉默是我的习惯吗？一向来不善于表达心意的我,难道错了吗？
做错了选择，我还能回头吗？我希望可以~
还剩几个月的时间！
贞翠！继续撑下去吧~
加油~
不是每一件事情都依你所望，别发白日梦了！
笨蛋！！ T.T
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Happy Birthday to me~ ^^

18th Birthday post? hmmm....

Yeaa..... I have a great 18th birthday this year! I really happy and satisfied much! 

First, is the Baba & Nyonya Family celebration. We celebrated earlier because most of them went back hometown that weekend. We had our dinner at 任你吃 steamboat restaurant. Then all of us went back to my house. When I was inside the room, suddenly they open the door and take a SUPER NICE + CUTE cake with singing birthday song. The cake was so nice... I Like it so much, NoNo, is I love it!! 有点不舍得吃哦~ Anyway, thankz so so much my dear friends!! Can be friend with you all is my treasure...<3 I appreciate much! ^_^

BaBa & Nyonya Family~~!! <3

Then the second celebration is with stream Y friends! They give me a surprise celebration at Kim Keong restaurant located at Kampar. It really not in my expectation! Thankz so much too!! Although we from different stream, but I hope our friendship will never end. I like to talk with u all, coz there were have no limitation talk with u guys! haha.... whatever thing also can say. It really happy~ ^^ 

Stream Y friends~~ ^^

Then then~~~ My housemate celebration!!! This is the most scary and shocked celebration! After celebrate with my stream Y friends, we went back home, then when I open my room door, my housemates take a cake  standing in my room, they close the light somemore! OMG! It really shocked me!!! As you all know, I scare those thing de ma... hehe.......... Well, it also not in my expectation!! Ishhh~ Kena shock third time dy~ Thankz to my housemates!!! ^^

My Lovely Housematessss.... <3

Well.... we went to KL at the next morning. Then Lao come and fetch us at KL Sentral then straight away go to times square!! As we planned, we went to Neway for Sing K time!!! YEAHHH!! I was so hungry that time, so I keep eating, and Yan and JiaYi sing at that time. While I eating, then suddenly door open, and " Happy Birthday Chui" !! OMG!! Guess who !! I saw Zuwen,kokhao, qing and annie!! OMG!! I was so so so shock and unbelievable! I was so touch and surprise! And guess what, I'm crying?? My tears drop! Wow, first time ehh~ Family Member!! We finally Gather at KL!!! So happy!! Can't describe the feeling. Thankz super much!!! And Zuwen and KokHao, thankz a lot! U guys have to come from so far... I love u guys!!!! <3 <3 Friendship Forever as I always say it!!! ^_^ and sorry KokHao, Zuwen and Annie, I think I can't celebrate u guys birthday this year... I'm so sorry~ >_<

Family Members!!! ^_^ <3 Heart muchh!! 

Girls part~~ ^^

Hmmmmm...... That was my 18th birthday!! How was yours?? I know it look like simple to u guys, but it meant a lot to me!! I Love all of my friendssssss!! *teehee* <3 <3

Joys around KL~

From my facebook, u all sure can see where I was in this past three days!
Yea... KL..!! A place that full entertainment and FOODS!! XD
I ate a lot during that 3 days... Almost 4 - 5 meals per days!! Gain weight again liao lo! =(
But is okay! Come KL is to enjoy de ma~~ Go back Kampar just diet again!!! ( hope I can * finger crossing* )
Actually the purpose went to KL is to celebrate Ah Lao's birthday.. But due to my sister was not around KL that time, so I have to tumpang sleep at Pui Li's house... Sorry ya li, ma fan u liao~ >_<
As u all know, got pui li & ah lao, most of my time sure is EAT!! And yea, I was eating all the time!
And I really enjoyed so much! Although I gain my weight, but it worth!! ( not everytime ma...XD )
Now let the picture so the talk! >>>>>>>>

Plus One Shabu Shabu at midnight~ 1am ++

You can choose & take any sauce u like as it already charge u RM1...

猪骨汤~ <3

Take a picture before going Sunway Pyramid... ^^

One of my best friend when Form 1~ Kinda long time din see her..Miss ya!

Had our " High Tea " at Kim Gary...

Choose French Toast as my High Tea! Delicious...<3

Chatime... Hazelnut Chocolate + white pearl... <3

Then we went to cinema to buy movie ticket, thought that I can watch my Johnny English Reborn, but hell yea! The tickets were sold out! Whats??!! The movie was release half month ago but it still full with people? Aikks, I have no fate with the movie... * sobb...sobbb... * Then we went to a small stall outside the cinema, (ireland's potato~ ) Their french fried was so crispy! Nice...

After ate the french fried just remember to take picture.. U guys can go and have a try there...

Had a Green Tea Ice-Cream before go off from Sunway... It was not that tasty from the 1st bite, but it yummy after u try another bite! <3

Then had our steamboat at "pui li" 's restaurant...

QQ taofu... recommended by Pui Li... and it really Nice la... XD

The Next day....Times Square

Had our breakfast at 欢喜地... This really yummy, mun heng's ones...

French Toast again! But Kim Gary better... XD

Neway karaoke box!! Sing K time.... Woohooo~~

Sing sing Sing......

A surprise earlier Birthday to Ah Lao!! 他们送错了！haha... laugh die me! XD

Fei Fei de, Fat lao, Uncle Hippo, You you de!! Happy Earlier Birthday!! <3

鸡公煲~ Very spicy for me although only medium spicy~ But really taste good!! Located at Kuchai Lama...

SnowFlake... Finally I ate u!!! XD

While waiting my SnowFlake... I'm Lovin it~~ <3

Then I had my breakfast at JoJo's Kitchen on the next morning.. [ forgot to take picture again..=(  ] It really nice than Face-to-Face noodle. Yummy.... And I still haven't taste my Tutti Fruity, Haagen Daze, Zanmai Sushi and etc.... I want to eat next time!! Promise yea... * small finger crossing... *

And lastly........................................................
My Birthday left 18 days!!! Muahahhaa.........  <3
Will update again on that time, maybe~~ XD
Have a Nice Day everyone... ^@^

I'm on A Diet !!

First and foremost, I would like to say........................
My Birthday is COMING soon~!! [ 22nd Oct] ( 24 days more<<< don't belasah me! I know kinda early to say this. ) But am always be like this every year! muahaha... Super SS~ Present yeaa... XD

Well, kinda bored in this passing two weeks. Nothing to do (or I should say I'm lazy to do...=) I'm kinda lazy..) Hmmm.... Semester 2, I thought it will be more fun than semester 2, but it's the same...* awww* Maybe just start my sem 2 hor.... * finger crossing* << comforting myself... :)
Then, I think my socialization subject will fail this sem! *awww* Lecturer & tutorial teacher all not the PRO! Hopefully I can "shun shun" in this sem... * praying praying*
Hope and wish wish wish would have any "miracle" happen.. Think too Much! XD Anyway, I'm still HOPING! ^@^

Then then thennnnn..... Errmm...........
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I have nothing to say......( don't kepok me again...XD )
I know I'm kinda lame... Cause I'm boring!!!
haha..... No fun No Life... =)

Oh ya oh ya, going to KL this week... (maybe... coz my sister not at home this weekend, I don't know where to stay... Wo sien!! =(
Then will go again on My Birthday!! All my friends that live at KL... I want to see you guys' Faces!! Hopefully... ^_^

Lastly,I want diet diet diet!! Can't gain my weight again!! Chui, you're fat enough already!! Diet la please... hor?? =) Don't eat too much liao! You break many rules dy! XD ( own rules ) Go jogging!! What is your purpose bring sport shoe to Kampar?? Don't you forget?? *aaarrgghhh*

Married again...??

Hmm... Kinda moody this few day.

First of all, he told me he gonna married soon. You guys sure very curious, who want to married again? yea, same as me, why so many people want to married? Desperate? And why the guys must be my Ex(s)... even are two! 

This time, tears drop inside the train, inside the car.. Its kinda hurt, is hurt deeply. 

Anyway, congraz and wish u have a happy family.  =)

I told my mom about this news, she said "so young want to married dy? " , " study finish dy meh? " ... First, i don't know why he want to married for the young age, 20 years old. Second, maybe gonna finish dy, he's studying diploma at Stamford College. Hmm.... my mom said nothing dy.. But on the next day, she come and sempit with me on my bed, then she ask, this bear (dudu) is he give ones ? I'm said "enn".... Maybe mom know I'm sad... Yes! I was! =( 

Well, sem break now! I should enjoy my life, right? Cheer chui... ^_^ 

Don't hope going back kampar! Shyt! I wish I can stay at KT forever... I wish....>_< 

Hope mom would be happy and healthy soon... I was regret with my choice now... I'm sorry...=(

Should hear you from the start! I was Stupid! Stupid!! Stupid!! :(

被遗忘的儿子~

又再一次犯贱的开了他的面子书，肯定又不是什么好事情了啦~

[ 不好意思大家，又要你们读伤心事了~ ]

开了他女友的页面，看了照片....

Oppsss.....看到了不应该看到的东西!

我们的情侣寒衣，你却给了她穿。

她知道是我们的情侣寒衣吗？

你有告诉她吗？还是你一点都不在乎了？还是你忘了？

许许多多的疑问在我脑海里，我自己也给不了自己一个合理的答案。

驾着车，坐在她隔壁的你，幸福吗？

穿着我买给你的衣服，和我们一起选的项链，但称赞你帅的人是她，有没有觉得可笑啊？

这次没哭了，只有心痛！眼泪早已为你流到干了。无言了......

我们的儿子( DuDu )， 你还记得吗？我是否早就应该把它给丢了？还是它只是我的抱枕而已？

每当抱着他，一定会想起你，我到底是这么啦？

大笨蛋！

被遗忘的儿子~

His girlfriend...

终于的终于，我看到了！终于看到你说你很爱的女朋友了。女主角不是我的影子，她应该比我好很多吧？从你们的照片中，看得出你很爱她，我认输了，我彻彻底底的失败了。看着你和她的照片，每个姿势都和当年一样。你牵着的手，不是我的。如今，你还记得牵着我的手是什么感觉吗？你吻着她的脸孔，有没有一种熟悉的感觉呢？

眼泪终于忍不住掉了。已有一年多，没为你哭了吧。心情真的很糟！很想发泄，但不能！

如果我们现在才认识对方，你会像爱她一样爱我吗？为什么我一直深爱着你，而我对你而言只是一个在你生活中露过的陌生人？想起我们的回忆，真是可笑！不知应该说缘分还是当年我的“愚笨"! 

好好珍惜她吧，不要让她成为第二个我。最后，勉强的祝福~ T____T